Cinnamon Girl

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Woah people, I am in love. It’s real and it’s deep and I am so excited I wanna sing from the roof tops (but I don’t want to scare my neighbors)! The only thing I need now is for the temperature to drop so I can wear this (and buttery leggings) all DAY everyday!

Let’s go back shall we. Long time readers of this space know I am a lover of knits especially ones that are very wearable. I am not a knit “just to knit” kind of girl. I need purpose! I need couture! I need coffee!

I will always choose a garment that I can wear. So, two years ago when I was hanging out with the always wonderful Amy Christoffers (savoryknitting.com) and she whipped this beauty out and I fell hard. It wasn’t even close to being published and I was all “just take all my money!!” What made the whole situation even sweeter was that it took one ball of Jill Draper’s Empire which I happened to come across over that weekend. Pattern check! Yarn check! It was ON.

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I am pretty sure I got home and couldn’t wait to cast on. Soon I had the sleeves and body ribbing done but stopped when I started the cable chart. Something was off and I couldn’t figure it out. My early version had a little hiccup which I totally didn’t have the brain capacity to fix myself so I put it away and went on to other knits.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago when I ran out of yarn for my current knit (Dotted Rays by Stephen West) I needed something to help keep my knitting mojo up. While searching around for various WIPs I came across the finished sleeves and knitted rib of Cinnamon Girl! Hurrah! A quick Ravelry check and sure enough the pattern was perfection and I was well on my way to my first finished knit in over a year.

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Bad Hair Don’t Care! (and oh hey James! :-))

Dudes. I don’t even care how bad my hair looks in this picture. My love for this sweater so big that I didn’t even make the time to fix it before posting!

I almost forgot how Blocking is Everything – and it shows with this sweater. At first when it was done I was worried the sleeves would be too short and snug all around. No, no. A bath in my fig scented Soak opened up those stitches beautifully and now they are almost “too” long but just the way I like it.

I can’t wait to wear this beauty at Rhinebeck this year! It feels SO GOOD to have a finished sweater to show for and wear and know every moment I had a chance to knit it was well worth it.

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Project Details:
Pattern – Cinnamon Girl by Amy Christoffers
Yarn – Empire by Jill Draper Makes Stuff

 

On being enough.


Lately, James has been having episodes daily for no apparent reason. We may be sitting watching some Mickey Mouse or pretending to go on vacations or cooking at his kitchen and then he’ll be staring at his hand. He’ll point to the one that is losing feeling or he’ll simply look up and I can tell something isn’t right because his eyes aren’t focusing together. Whatever the trigger, I’ll scoop him up ask him to lay his head down on my shoulder and rest. “It will pass soon if you just rest,” I’ll say.

When James was a baby I remember doing this and feeling so frustrated because he would squirm a lot. He wouldn’t or couldn’t understand that if he were to just hold still, to close his eyes he may be able to pass this moment without it getting worse. It seems easier now, even though he is heavier, that he follows this direction which inevitably leads to him falling asleep on me.

It’s always a fight in my head when this happens. Ideally it’s near a nap time so I can try and lay him down in his bed which works 50% of the time. Either he rolls on in or pops right back up with a drool-laced grin on his face wanting to go back to playing. But today I am just holding him because it’s too soon for a nap and I’m hoping this moment will just pass lightly.

I look to my youngest son who is obsessed with trains right now, “Cho choo-ing” to his heart’s content until he notices I am carrying James a little too long and he immediately drops his toy and runs over to me screaming “mama!” with his hands up in the air. “Oh Ben”, I say, “I can’t pick you up right now. How about a video on the IPad!”

Ben is going to be a master programmer for Apple by the time he turns 2. I haven’t the space in my brain or heart to feel guilty about his screen time. I watch him scroll past movies and press play on the ones he deems worthy. He looks up at me smiling happy to have his entertainment system. He begins to look around for that train he dropped before. He may have his IPad but he wants his “Choo Choo”, too.

These moments come and go in my regular routine. James may have one good day followed by 5 days in a row with episodes. Sometimes it’s more predictable but mostly they come without warning or care. I keep clinging to the idea that they are only temporary. That he won’t have episodes like this when he’s older. That it will be weeks or months between them. I know Ben won’t be 20 months forever either. My heart breaks and aches thinking of this. So today I’ll just sit with my son asleep on me, my youngest “Choo Choo-ing” and swiping away realizing that this is the best I can do and that it’s enough.

WIP: Cinnamon Girl

I actually have some knititng to show for!

I had been working on Steven West’s Dotted Rays for a few weeks but after I ran out of yarn (waiting on reinforcements) I decided to look through my WIPs pile and found that I had two sleeves done from Cinnamon Girl by Amy Christoffers!

Dudes, sleeves can be a downer so naturally when I saw they were done I was all “let’s get this finished!”

There’s something great about a cabled sweater, because you have so much to do it makes it move along quickly. So quickly in fact that I was cruising along nicely until I realized I did the cable chart wrong. I doubled the diamond part without realizing it. I blame knitting while watching Stranger Things! (Which by the way lives up to the hype! So good! Winona Forever!)


I thought for a hot moment that I would just rip back the cables and not the entire row but it would have proven too complicated. I could also have left it and doubt that many would notice but I know I would.

Ripping hurts a little bit more in this stage of my life where knitting time comes at a premium. All those precious minutes spent working all for naught. While I like to think I knit just to knit – I am very much driven by the end product.

I cannot tell you how excited I am to finish this sweater. Did you know I haven’t finished a sweater since 2013? I realize that may not sound that crazy but you’re talking to a girl who could knit 14-15 pieces in a year down to 1 every 3.

I hope to wear this sweater at Rhinebeck this year and who knows if I’m lucky (which I doubt) maybe I’ll finish a 2nd one in time! (My eyes are on you Flaum. ;-))

Presenting Jams for James!

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One of the many things I’ve dipped my hand in these past few months is working a direct sales gig with Jamberry. Since I haven’t been able to do much it’s been a wonderful way for me to exercise my brain in a non-mom way!

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I bought my first nail wrap in a fundraiser for AHCkids.org, the sister organization to CureAHC.org, and fell immediately in love. I threw a party of my own and soon after decided to join up. I figured if I didn’t go anywhere with it at least I have a product I love!

Well, it’s been more successful than i could have ever imagine. I use the business to spread awareness of Alternating Hemiplegia of Childhood as well as donate my commissions to CureAHC.org. Everyone who I get to talk to about nail wraps hears my story about James and I think feel good about getting a beautiful manicure for a wonderful cause.

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After working for a few months I decided to do reach out to one of my favorite designers (and former blogger) Jessica Jones to see if she’d be interested in designing some nail wraps! To say I was thrilled she said yes is an understatement. I had a complete fangirl moment! (I sure did, Jessica!)

With her flair we designed 8 beautiful wraps that are going to be sold on a limited run to help fundraise for CureAHC.org.

I call them Jams for James!

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I can’t even pick a favorite, I love them all so much! What makes this whole campaign even sweeter is that I have a secret benefactor aka “Team James Guardian Angel” who will be matching my donation to CureAHC.org!  So get while you can!

If you are interested in trying a sample of Jamberry wraps go here —-> Sample Request!

Ready to have a beautiful manicure for a wonderful cause, order here —->  J for J Order Form!

The best part of Jamberry nail wraps? Doing your nails and not having to wait for them to dry in order to knit!

xo,
M